[ 5/31/2009 03:17:00 PM ]

A DREAM OR SUBCONCIOUSNESS?

[ 4/29/2009 05:07:00 PM ]

Everything seems to be quite in place now. Im relief. Turning a new leaf. Partially I guess. Just so you know.... I want this more than I want anything else. Life has been really nice to me. Syukur alhamdullillah. Thank you God. Im getting back on track now. Im back to school anyway. I hope this would work out well this time round cause it's the one thing I know I could make it in. No more nonsense. I hope. Been looking forward to it and yes Ive finally got it. Alhamdullillah. People around me have been really supportive especially my beloved Mama. I love you. Thanks for the listening ears and the shoulder to cry on. And surprisingly, you understand me, at last. One thing that I'll never forget is when you said that you'll always remember me in your prayers. I love you Mama. :) However, I cant deny this, I mustn't take things for granted. Things could change its bend and take action immediately. So I have to be prepared, emotionally and mentally. Im willing to face it, if it is for the right reasons. Ive learn alot, you taught too much. And Im putting every single thing into consideration. It's hard for the both of us. I know. Repetition ends in failure, but when repetition ends, we'll start over okay? Enough said.

i hate this part. [ 2/23/2009 12:50:00 AM ]

i swear the world is being a bitch today. fugggg.

but you know i love you like fuck baby.

[ 2/20/2009 07:38:00 PM ]

[ 2/19/2009 02:51:00 PM ]

I hate this part right here. Ive been sick lately. Everything just keeps piling up on my already weak body. I had a long-term medical leave from doc. It's still not enough. I'll be back to work tomorrow and I hope I could carry out my duty as per normal. I felt bad for my kids. They have long been neglected by me. I hope I could make up to them tomorrow at school. I miss them loads. Especially my dearest Keira. She must be missing me too. And not forgetting my Malcolm. Who would only want me by his side every second. Everywhere, anywhere and anytime he would be sticking with me like glue. How adorable in an annoying way. I have a life you know kid. okay enough said bout my kids.

I dont know what's wrong with me for the last past weeks. Ive been getting real sick lately. The sickness just appears one by one. Im surprise with what my life could bring me. A sick sick bitch. Simple. Im worried about my self-being. Why must all of this happen in times of money crisis?? Why? You know getting sick means losing money. And I hate it. When im on medical leave it means NPL. And that's losing money. Let me see how long have I'd been on medical leave..... about 5 days. I'll repeat this clearly, 5 DAYS. Jeezzz..... the money taken out from my pay is alot. And they pay me like crap. So now I'll recieve an even more crappier pay this month. How can this get anymore better? fuck. I hate this part.

In this case, Ive made up my mind to stop my current job. The explanation for this might be really hard for me to convey here. I just make it straight to the point with simple words for you lovely people to understand and read.

I know in the earlier part before I start my job, I did say that Im fine with the job. However, to my accord, I realised I shouldn't take the risk of signing the borne with them. Im afraid I could not carry out the duties with some valid reasons.

The reasons are as stated:

I've made up my mind. I just applied for Higher Nitec in Early Childhood just moments ago. I hope there are still vacancies. Or maybe some of the 'O' levels leavers who got the course and decided to give up on it might bring me a little chance of getting in. I hope so. Results will be release latest by 3rd April 09. I hope I could get the spot in the course. Insya'allah. This is an option for me after Ive resign the job. I might be opting in taking private dip. but is way too expensive for me. See how things goes. I need at least a CPT just to get a higher paying job in this field. My passion for this is in me. I hope I'll make it through.

till my next update......

xoxo

p.s: I know you love me bitch. xoxo. haha!

Happy 6th Monthsary (part 2) [ 2/18/2009 07:30:00 PM ]

Happy 6th Monthsary! [ 2/17/2009 02:13:00 PM ]

Today is the day that marks our never ending love for each other.

A text message send from me to him yesterday night at 1.34am.

Might be wondering how we celebrated it? Okay. Here's the awesome plan that I had for him. It was celebrated as an advance anniversary because of circumstances, he's working and Im suppose to be working today (im on medical leave, dont ask why bitches.) So we celebrated it on the 15th Feb which falls on a Sunday.

First of all, he had plans on that day, and i mean it, plans. So i tried to compromise with him about the timing for us to meet up and have the celebration. So it was set to roughly around 8pm. Why in the evening? Well, I planned a candle light dinner somewhere at Admiralty Park. Definitely, im extremely worried that this awesome plan of mine is not gonna work out. Somehow, there are some things that I expect or plan didnt turn out well. Like me surprising him at the park instead, it didnt work out. You know why? Cause the plans that he had on that day didnt really end late. So, he had nowhere to go and decided to pay me an early visit at my place at around 5+pm. I was just starting to prepare the stuffs. What I meant was, I was just beginning to cook for the candle light dinner. I was abit confused and shocked though.

So I let him in my house and instructed him to stay in my room untill Im done with everything. As usual, he is always as curious as ever. He kept coming out and sneak into the kitchen to find out what Im up to. Well, I did caught him and told him not to disturb or else the celebration will be delayed. And guess what, it did. From 8pm, it is being pushed forward to 9pm. How lovely. haha! -__-" This is cause by me taking too much time on the groceries shopping and I didnt estimated the time taken for me to cook all the dishes.

Not to let him down or myself, I continued with the plan. My mum and dad kept pestering me just to have it outsid the house. That part I was really annoyed. But in the end, my mum was being a nice nice mum that night and just let me continue with the plan as usual. hehe! thanks mama! So I packed all the stuff needed and got ready for the occassion. He was a bit carnky already. You know, he hated waiting so end up being grumpy. I tried to cheer him up a bit though along our way to the park. But somehow Im pretty sure that this surprise will perk him up. :)

We've reach the designated area and settle down around the big pond area, the one that is nearer to Sakura. The park had wooden benches that has table attached. So I set up the dinner without him looking at the surprise. I told him to turn his back on the table and play his PSP while I set up the surprise. I was damn anxious to see how he reacted after I let out the surprise. Before that, I did tell him that we're going to have a dinner outside but he didnt know how we're going to have it.

So after the final touches. I told him to turn around. And to my accord, Im happy with the way he reacted. He was put to silent. He was speechless. I can see a smile on his face form ear to ear. He said this to me, " Eh thanks alot sayang... no one has ever done this to me in my entire life. How sweet of you sayang...." And he kept smiling in shock. Im happy and relieved that all my hard work and effort has paid off. And yes, the surprise did perk him up. And part of the reason for him being a grumpy man before the surprise is because he was too hungry. After he'd seen the food that I prepared for us, he cant wait to dig in. hahaha!

I hope this would be the most memorable day for you in our entire 6 months of relationship together. Who knows in near future, there are even more bigger surprises. So there is something to look forward to. I hope you love it my dear. And thank you so much for the gift (an Eeyore to replace my dirtied Pooh bear. hahaha!) you get me. I appreciate it alot!! :D

p.s: I hope you love the song that I sang made specially for you. Will upload it soon here. :)

p.p.s: We dont really celebrate Valentine's day if you people were wondering.

p.p.p.s: I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH MY DEAREST BOYFY! (since 17.08.08)

till my next post lovely people.

Adios!! :)